Our Holiday curve..

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Gearing up for our first gluten, dairy and soy free holidays. Since we will be going to my Mother in Laws...all our cooking needs preparing at home. I have admittedly morphed into some kind of paranoia frenzy cat about the whole food ingredient process. Having witnessed my little one experience the ghastly poisonous symptoms gluten and soy do to her system...leaves me no choice but to be on guard.


The mother in law bless her dear heart...is filled with wonderment on  the  'whys' ."Why don't you wean Emily already?,why does she sleep in your bed?, why aren't you Christening her"?  The ~whys~ often come in excerpts and transform into long discussions that perhaps (or not) alter states of awareness. Never interfering, she listens and honors our child rearing...with many questions. She finds certain parenting approaches that resonate with us as foreign and almost not existent. We do not make it a confrontation when asked the whys.What for? We do not have to prove anything to anyone, our decisions are based from our own truths.What we feel is best for our family. Doesn't make it right or wrong. Tactfully declaring truths based from my heartfulness is all I can do. Interestingly, her wonderment doesn't create static between us, rather it fills voids we both have within and without. Now, back to the whole holiday curve~



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Although the diet transition was difficult at first, I  know it all happened for our individual health needs. I look forward to not experiencing that heaviness feeling after consuming a traditional meal. I sit in a variety of traditions in the holiday arena. Having not celebrated any holidays in my upbringing, I find myself torn between mainstream traditions, the in laws traditions, and what resonates with our family. Claiming a specific denomination is not an option for us. It is such a sticky residue of a subject is it not? So many views out there, so many perceptions, so many judgments. I often envision living in a hut where no religious influences to bear would be the ultimate experience. A eraser of belief systems that wash away over my psyche...ahh what a vision. We have such appreciation for various culturistic traditions that all~ (our belief) are one. If I am asked what religion I am my reply is we are "Spiritually based".


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Ive been on the hunt for some child books for Emily that contain various traditions that exist.  We would like to feed her with elements of spirituality without the dogma. If you have any books that you would like to share that fit this criteria it would be most appreciated :). 


I havent made up my mind 100% on exactly what curve we will lean towards with Emily. I trust in the intuition as our guide during these times of uncertainty. Most times the swaying  back and forth on a swing is of most comfort. I do recognize for my daughters sake I must eventually jump off the swing. Standing freely with the wind  to and fro.

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Inside the Kingdom of an Ant

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This past week we had my family visit from California. I've been busy preparing, planning, and running on the go non stop. Upon there arrival I did a clean sweep of the house and found some living creatures who were quite busy in my home.. I do not clean as meticulously as I used to. I have become more mellow yellow towards the home cleaning task.The entrance way to my back door appeared an ant hill.  Many little creatures busting loose creating, gathering, and working together collecting stuff and traveling it all into this hill in my home. Many of them were apparently quite busy; intrigued..I took a closer look. What was interesting was the absence of food, or anything sweet that would attract them. I watched them for about 10 minutes and pondered....  imagining myself as a little ant~ A ant who has a mission.. a purpose.. a goal for something.

  • An ant who if needed would carry materials for miles all for the good of the family/community.
  • An ant who performs duties with total loyalty and honesty to the whole.
  • An ant who if threatened will fight for the greater good.
  • An ant who if needed will dig tunnels.
  • An ant who commits to the health and survival of the whole colony regardless what role she was assigned.
  • An ant who  utilizes her instincts, and prepares for unexpected chaos.
  • An ant who steers clear of drama and focus's on the present.
  • An ant who has worked hard navigating her way through the tunnel.
  • An ant who pulls off her wings at the moment fertilization occurs; then sacrifices flight for the birth of her newborn. 


They are selfless servant critters always looking out for their fellow ant. They focus on the best outcome for the community/family and teach the art of self sacrifice and true service. They don't sit in fear waiting, wondering if someone will stomp on them, rain on there parade; or ruin them even. Native American tradition believes that every thing occurring in our external lives is a result, symptom, or reflection of our internal life.  And so, we can effectively look at our life situations as a metaphor. Ants trust Natural Law and that reward is just over the horizon. It's similar to "can't hurry Love" or "haste makes waste." Patience is of the utmost importance right now so that you have more time and noticed opportunity to prepare for your ultimate success. Ant People are drawn to completing projects that benefit the community as a whole and they work in complete cooperation with those around them. Ant People typically have a lot of weight riding on their back.



When Ant Medicine grabs your attention it asks you to cooperate with your tribe (co-workers, family, projects, etc.,) in unity and patience. Ants are resolute and unwearied little creatures. Although they are tiny, they are indeed mighty. They have a strong skeleton on the "outside" of their body (exoskeleton) with specialized muscles that give them their strength. Ants can carry 30 times their weight, which would be equal to a 150 lb. person carrying a bulldozer on their back at 19,500 lbs. The typical way to stop ant medicine is to literally stomp on it or fumigate it. If an ant is stomped on, it will emit pheromones that will draw more ants to the area. In short, ant medicine is unstoppable, tireless, patient and unified.


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So what do you do when /if you see an ant in your circle struggling? Do you intervene? Do you present a righteous stance? Do you take the burden off by doing the work for them? These questions along with others stir in my mind. Spiritually speaking I know that everyone has a path, a purpose. However, if a close family member/co worker/confidant etc. is struggling, how do you assist? I have a warped habit of thinking that my loved ones can conquer challenges just as I have. They can! They just choose not to, or are not ready. So. I. Sit. Back. Watch. Stare. Hold the tears back and trust. I gently suggest, advise,  along with a compassion persona. I can only open the door I cannot push anyone through it.



So I sit in this energy, trying my best to practice patience in  many aspects of my life. To see myself working together rather than against.... trusting. Each member of my family carries components (including myself) that are difficult to blend with one another. Without the different perspectives I suppose this would surely be a very boring place to be.



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